Kansas City... Here I come!

I move in exactly two weeks to go to the International House of Prayer! Oh how I long to dwell in the house of the Lord!

Jesus I love You

Thank You Jesus that You have pulled me up out of the grave of my past and loved me to a measure far beyond my mind can even grasp. Oh Lord I am so thankful that You have allowed me to come to a place of rest in you. Jesus you prepared my heart to trust your ways. Lord I surrender it all to You because I trust that Your will is the only & sure way. It is the best feeling I have ever felt to know I am in the will of the Father. There is a peace and confidence that comes from trusting the uncreated God. The will of my life has come from such a deep and burning place of love for my soul, how could I deny that love?

As the bride of Christ I long to be equally yolked in love with You Jesus. From the place of that unfailing love You have for me teach me to love You the same way. There is nothing better, Your love has won my heart.

Jesus I love You

Praise the Lord!

My cousin accepted Jesus last night over the phone with me! Another citizen of heaven has been born! Halleluia!!

Searching for the City

Hebrews 11 is one of my favorite chapters...

10 for he waited for the city which has foundations, whose builder and maker is God... 13 These all died in faith, not having received the promises, but having seen them afar off were assured of them, embraced them and confessed that they were strangers and pilgrims on the earth. 14 For those who say such things declare plainly that they seek a homeland... 16 But now they desire a better, that is, a heavenly country. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for has prepared a city for them. 25 choosing rather to suffer affliction with the people of God than to enjoy the passing pleasures of sin, 26... for he looked to the reward.

Our reward is growing closer and closer as our surprisingly small lifespans keep flying by. Thinking about my lifespan on earth versus my lifespan in eternity completely confirms my heart to be living of the things of heaven. I find that keeping my gaze on the city will never fail to bring me peace. It also causes pain, temptation and distractions to be eased, in knowing that they are only in exsistence in this life.

Moses had a choice to suffer affliction or to parttake in the passing pleasures of sin. The only way he was able to choose to suffer is because he saw past the present and had faith in the unseen; because he looked to the reward.

I want to grow in faith, so that when I am face with suffering I will not compromise or give in because I will have my focus so firmly placed on the things above. This kind of faith does not happen over night, so we must pursue the city diligently. We need to stay in the Word daily, so we can develop a deep relationship with Christ, as a person. The deeper we go in Christ the lighter we will become, and the more our faith will grow. He promises to be found by the heart that searches for Him.

"You will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find me, when you search for Me with all your heart. I will be found by you," says the Lord

Learning to Love

Something I truly desire in this life is to know the love of Christ, and be able to love to the supernatural degree that He loves. I want to love in all circumstances, even the undeserving, those who persecute me, the drug addicts, the prostitutes, the murders, the disabled. I want to learn how to love in the deepest way, that those who never have felt loved would feel the love of Christ through me.

And this I pray, that your love may abound still more and more in knowledge and all discernment... Philippians 1:9

The only way that we can learn to love the way Jesus loved is if we understand how much He loves us, and allow our hearts to open up in that place of vulnerability and trust that His love is unfailing. Without trusting in His love, we will never be satisfied. When we arn't satisfied our hearts begin searching for that thing which will satisfy, and until we realize He is our only hope we will remain empty.

...but have not love, I am nothing... love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails... 1 Corinthians 13:2-8

My cute little brother Forrest and I on my 20th birthday :)

Finding Rest in Him

For he who has entered His rest has himself also ceased from his works as God did from His. Let us therefore be diligent to enter that rest, lest anyone fall according to the same example of disobedience. (Hebrews 4:10-11)

And having been perfected, He became the author of eternal salvation to all who obey Him. (Hebrews 5:9)

As I was meditating on these passages yesterday I realized how necessary it is to have rest in the Lord...

The only way to enter into rest in Jesus is if we allow our busy schedules (works) to be mellow, so we can commune with God. We must be focused on having rest in Him or it will never become part of daily lives. And the lack of diligence in having that rest is, in God's eyes, disobedience. So obeying Him will naturally bring us into a place of rest with the Lord. Oh Lord, how I long for rest in You, Your presence is all I need.

And as it says eternal salvation is for those who obey... leading me to believe that eternal salvation is for those who have rest in Him, because they obey. Isn't that just beautiful, Jesus doesn't want to compete with our schedules, even if it is ministry. He just wants our time, our love, our affection towards Him. I want to experience all there is to know about this man, I am hungry to engage in a deep relationship and fall more in love with Him. I know that there will never be an end to this precious love and rest I find in Him. And simply by obeying Him, I have unlimited access straight to His heart.

I pray that my heart would abound in love, and that I will always be diligent to find my rest in Him. Amen. I love You Jesus with all of me.

Sara